Warning: The first part of this post will seem so random!
Well today, I was hungry, so I stood in the pantry doorway. I spotted some barbecue chips. I bit into one and entered another world. The world of my past; when I was a little girl in Kansas. I had memories of small church picnics on summer afternoons. I experienced the warm summer breeze and the smell of bug spray. I could see the field behind the church with the daisies in bloom. I saw the fluffy clouds in the crystal blue sky. I could smell barbecued foods and see the plastic tablecloths flutter in the wind.
How simple life used to be then. Boys had cooties, I didn't know what the word economics meant, I didn't have to worry about entrance exams for college, and I didn't have anyone to worry about or take care of besides myself.
It's funny. Back then, I though to myself about how I would be when I got older; when I got the age I am now. I thought for sure that when I was fifteen, I'd have a job, a car, a boyfriend (or at least a string of guys who liked me), and a ridiculous amount of freedom and money. Now that I am fifteen, I don't have any of it. I'm not complaining at all; I love my life. But I don't have a job, I don't have a car (I can't even drive :( ), I do not have a boyfriend (and do see I'm to young to have one, and don't even really want one), I don't have a string of guys who like me, I don't have the privileges I thought I'd have (such as driving to parties and such), and I may as well be broke.
But I'm totally fine with all this. I don't need any of it, I see now. I was just observing how different my life is from the big plans I had. I never would've dreamed I'd be where I am now! I love it.
So it just goes to show, that God's plans are much better than mine. I saw that all from a single barbecue chip. ;)
3 comments:
Hahahahahahaha! Oh sarah, sarah you crack me up We are SO Young and have our whole life to live, i try not to inhabit my mind with thoughts of college until absolutely necessary, works good for me you should try it ;) Lol and oh the church on a nice windy day many memories of that! And I have a Job and Car... Its not that great lol I always seem to never have money and cars mean you can drive to the grocery store for your mother! Boyfriends are okay but overall SUCK! And God apparently new that I love visiting my friends who live close to amazing beaches, sunsets, and trampolines that is why he made me and you friends hehe ;)
I love reading your posts keep it up
.:With Love:.
Emily
Aw, thanks, Emily. lol, you need to come over so we can eat hot cheetos and drink grape juice. ;D
yes yes i do... talking about flaming hot cheetos I made a special road trip to the store yesterday just for some. Very tasty I might add not as good with out you eating them with me though! I think i might be going up to florida for my cousins wedding its only a weekend but maybe we could meet somewhere and visit! Idk we should try =) lol
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