It's been a hard week for me. I'm not telling you the situation right now, but it's nothing tragic (like a family member's death or something). It's just been very difficult. I'm still trying to figure out things, so please pray for me -or for whom this situation concerns.
I was really upset this weekend. This weekend has held sobbing (a lot of it. Most of friday was spent doing it), little food (only to be so upset that I threw it back up), a nearly five pound weight loss, confusion and a lot of sleep. It's been an unreal weekend. But even through it, I'm able to say God is so good to me.
The day I was upset, a good friend of mine heard of my situation and called me to cheer me up. I talked to my friend and it helped a lot. It was good to have someone to talk to. At the beginning of the conversation, I was so upset, I was trying my best to keep my food down (which I didn't, in the end). But by the end, I felt a lot better.
The next day was spent adjusting to things and though I didn't eat much, I was able to keep it down. I slept a lot that day and prayed and read my Bible.
Yesterday was brighter. Things are still hard, but I know God takes care of people. This is a very good realization for me. I know that He wants what's best for others even more than I do, and He knows what's best also (that's a big plus, haha).
I don't tell you all of this to make you feel sorry for me. But I know that most of you who read this are good friends of mine, or at least very good acquaintances, and I think it's okay to tell you this because I know that you can know that I'm not alright a lot of the time. And I, of all people, like to make people think I'm always fine, always good, when I'm really not. But I know I can trust you to pray for me and love me even though I'm not always okay, or composed. Is that cool with you? I certainly hope I can tell you if I'm not okay.
But right now, I'm pretty okay. God is good. I have a lot of amazing people watching my back. God, my parents (yes mom, I know you're reading this and yes, you're terribly cool and I like having you around. ;), my friends (the best friends in the world! I'm getting all teary now. I seriously have the best friends in the world. No joke), people from my church; all these people care about me and are making sure I'm not experiencing excess pain. Like, all these random people I didn't even know cared that much stepped up recently to watch my back. Crazy. I'm so thankful for genuinly caring people. I've always appreciated them immensly, but even more so now. So, if you're genuinly caring, thank you. ;)
You know, I should take this time to thank you. If, you're reading this, I really appriciate you. No. Really, I do. All of you who leave sweet comments or see my on a regular basis. I love you all and your support leaves me teary and thankful often. You guys make my day and I can't believe God would see it fit to give me such nice, amazing people to share my thoughts with that actually want to hear what I have to say and care about what happens in my life. It's mind blowing really.
Anyway, I'm going to get off now. Sorry, no deep thoughts today. Just updates and thanks. I'll be praying for you and I hope you have a terrific weekend. :)
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