7.18.09

Hey! I hope you've had a good week and the summer weather isn't getting to you yet. *Can't wait till winter, ahem*
I've had a good week, though very busy.
So, I was thinking last night (no, actually, not night, it was at about 4:30 am, lol) about how cool God is.
I was reading through my journal of these past few months. It's crazy looking at then and looking at now. I'm barely the same person on the inside; these months have changed me so much. But anyway, I was comparing then to now. It's so crazy. God has taken the hardest decisions and situations in my life and turned them into something immensely beautiful. Looking back, if I hadn't done what He'd asked me to do, I wouldn't be blessed the way I am today.
I was so afraid then; when He called me and told me to change things. I felt so small and afraid. So many times, I almost didn't go through with what He told me to do. I was so close to just saying, "Forget it, Jesus, it's too hard." Oh my, I didn't know what He had in store for me. If I would have done that, given up on His plan, I wouldn't be where I am today. I wouldn't have the same blessings.
Oh, it's so insane looking at how close I was to missing it, missing Him. I almost failed, I almost missed what He wanted to bless me with.
His plan is so intricate. Looking through my journal, I realized all the times God was working behind my back (yet right in front of my face) and weaving His signs in and out of my situations. Even small things, He was using them t show me His will.
Isaiah 42:16 says, "I will lead the blind by ways they have not known, along unfamiliar paths I will guide them."
I can say that this is surely true for me. I was in unfamiliar paths for sure.
Ok, sorry, I'm kind of rambling now. It just blows my mind how He works. He must spend so much time on me alone, so what about you or the rest of the world? He must be so busy!
Well, just dropped by to let you know I'm doing well. So, I'll write you soon!